Trying to sell things on Craigslist. Nothing is selling. I'm fighting demons emotional and demons financial. Courage and fear. More fear than I'm comfortable with.
I filmed in an actual abandoned insane asylum about 5 years ago. It was a shuttered wing of an opened, state run psychiatric hospital in downstate Illinois. When I look back at the pictures from that era...
...an actual "cell"...
I remember feeling the history, the horror, the hopelessness. I wasn't afraid. I needed courage for other things - not for being inside a loony bin. I was excited to present this amazing location. Today I find myself with less courage than I need. Afraid of going bonkers. I hope my working hard at making it better works. I don't want to feel at home here. I'm tired of being tired. I am not at home with fear.
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